Heeding the Call
By Cindy Lowy Fess
The Unfolding of My Life Path
All my life, I have relied on my
intuition. Sometimes, I knew that I was following it. Other times, when I wasn’t
paying attention, I still miraculously seemed to be on the right track. Somehow,
my angels and spirit guides were leading me, despite my conscious awareness of
their guidance. It is easy to look back on my life and see how one event lead to
another, creating a path that has led me to where I am now.
I could never have predicted the twists and
turns my life would take, to bring me to my present state. At various times in
my life, I despaired, thinking that things surely were not working out. Now, I
can see that even the difficult times were just stepping stones and preparation
on the way to fulfillment of my destiny.
As a very young child, I knew that I was an
artist. I also knew things about people and situations without being told. I was
frequently aware of what people were thinking, and knew things that would happen
in advance. I saw auras, I heard inner messages, and I had visions. I also felt
the presence of my spiritual angels and guides. But at the time, I didn’t think
that any of that was unusual. It is simply who I was. But, as time went on, I
realized that not everyone had these same abilities. Or, if they did, they
didn’t talk about it. So, I learned to keep it quiet. In fact, I began to rely
on my abilities less. In a sense, I separated from who I really was.
However, God always has a plan for us, and sends angels and spirit
guides to keep us on track. I was guided to develop my artistic and musical
ability, which became my avenues for inspiration and divine guidance.
I was deeply spiritual until my
twenty’s. In fact, when I was seventeen years old, I remember making a promise
to God that I would always serve him in whatever way was required. My intention
was pure. Unfortunately, I veered off track for awhile, going through a period
of doubt in early adulthood. I was still spiritually guided even then, but I was
getting too far from where I needed to be on my life path.
Finally, I was forced to confront
my spiritual beliefs when life threw some curve balls, throwing my life into
havoc. Despite the chaos in my life, something good was happening---I began to
wake up to my true nature. In fact, one of the best things that ever happened to
me was when I had a dramatic spiritual awakening in 1996. The result was that my
intuition increased dramatically and I received the ability to feel all types of
energy. I began to sense and feel the energy of
spirits and angels, as well as the energy of people, places, objects, food, and
more. (The
whole story is in my book, Harmony and Me.) During this
awakening, I was visited by many angels, one who appeared in physical
form to deliver an important message. My psychic abilities began to
return in full force. I knew that I had come to a major turning point in
my life, and I knew things would never be the same.
Angels and spiritual guides began to visit me night and day. God stepped
firmly in, guiding me once again to the place I needed to be. These have
been wondrous years, full of awesome discovery of the “world that lies
beyond us.” During the last 10 years of meditating, attending workshops
on spirituality, and reading books about the subject, my psychic gifts
increased. One day, I knew it was time to share these gifts with others.
My guiding angels told me it was time to follow my given path. They told
me to stop denying my gifts and share them. After debating and
resisting, I finally gave in and said, “Okay. I will serve God as I
promised so long ago.”
Since my spiritual awakening,
through the regular spiritual practice of meditation and prayer, I have
fine-tuned my natural intuitive abilities, becoming proficient at seeing angels,
spirit guides and spirits, and hearing messages from the spiritual and angelic
realm. This heightened ability serves me well in my attempt to live a balanced,
healthy life.
Despite periods of doubt and
indecision, I have always known that my Creator would lead me to where I need to
be. My desire to serve humanity was rekindled nine years ago, and since then,
God has led me through one open door after another. I was led to write two
spiritual books, the first, Harmony and Me, and the second which I am attempting
to get published. I have also been led to do motivational speaking, and
spiritual art.
I am now at the point where I
embrace who I was always meant to be, a visionary and spiritual teacher. As a
visionary, I see where humanity needs to be and so I use all of my creative and
intuitive abilities to aid in this process.
Once again, God is leading me into
new waters. In the last month, he made it clear that I am to use my
artistic and intuitive ability to help people reconnect with their true
nature, their spiritual nature. And so, with pure intent to help others,
I am doing psychic readings, and creating Personal
Art Mandalas for people.
The Mandala
is a sacred circle, a symbol of healing and wholeness—which has been used from
ancient times to the present in spiritual traditions around the world, commonly
used as a focus for meditation and healing. Another example of mandalas are the
rose windows found in many cathedrals and churches, consisting of designs,
patterns and figures made of colored glass. When lit by the sun, they are
beautiful to behold, a creation of light and color, which can provide a focus
for contemplation.
As I
create these Personal Art Mandalas, I quiet my mind so that I can be an open
vessel for healing and inspiration. First, I say a prayer for the
subject, and then I call in my angels and the subject’s angels. Then, I
simply draw what I sense, see, hear and feel from these powerful angelic
guides. I do not know in advance what I am going to draw. I just let the
specific forms, symbols, colors and words come through my hand onto the
paper. The process of creating personal guided art is humbling, because
what comes through my hand is profound, healing and powerful. I know
that it comes only because I have been given this artistic ability, and
because I am open to something greater than I am-- I function merely as
the channel for healing. It is a gift I do not take for granted, and it
is a gift I am meant to share
I know
that as my life progresses, my faith will continue to be tested as I struggle to
honor my promise to God. But my past shows me that the future unfolds as it
should. All that is required of me is my desire to serve, a dedication to
regular spiritual practice, and faith that God and my angels will continue to
guide me. Now,
I stand on the front lines, serving in whatever way God directs me to
serve. I know there is much to do, to help bring forth the divine love
and light within each of us.
I believe
that each person has the ability to tune into their own personal divine guidance
through an open heart and mind. I honor my own path by helping people discover
that God is already inside them, waiting to be revealed. The God in me sees the
God in you. And all shall be well.
What
does it mean to be psychic?
Unfortunately, the word psychic tends to raise images of psychic scams
and commercialized fortune telling rather than the true meaning of the
word. I wish there were a better word to represent the kind of work I
do. But, perhaps I can describe it well enough so that it makes sense.
When I read for someone, I connect directly with Spiritual energies.
I
am clairvoyant, clairaudient, and clairsentient. I also receive messages
from loved ones who have crossed over, giving me the special ability to
channel communication between this world and the world of Spirit. I
channel all information in a positive light in order to help others. It
is immensely rewarding to know that peace, joy and comfort is received
from these readings.
It
is good to finally feel at home with my abilities, to embrace them as my
essential self. God gave me psychic abilities along with my artistic
abilities, and this is who I am. Recently, I heard Oprah Winfrey say
that one of the greatest things she wants to accomplish is to be able to
say that she is truly herself. This, I believe, is the goal each of us
must strive to attain. I am grateful to finally be able to openly share
my natural spiritual gifts with my clients, who validate my readings
with positive feedback and words of thank.